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Mind Control
by Michelle Montoro
You are in my head. But that is not where you are supposed to be. You live in New Jersey. Please go back there.
I want to be alone. By myself. But the things you say, they are always there. And then, you are always there.
The things you have said. I can hear them. Repeating. And somehow, they give me strength. Maybe it’s the strength I need.
“You’re fat.”
“You’re a fucking retard.”
“You stupid cunt.”
Once upon a time, I started to believe it. Now, it gives me strength to see what you are.
And it gives me clarity to see what I am.
“I am beautiful.”
“I am brave.”
“I am brilliant.”
And I am stronger than I have ever been.
Strong enough to say, “Good-bye.”
Brilliant enough to say, “Fuck you.”
Michelle is a stay-at-home mother of two boys, an Army wife, a passionate scholar, and a lover of words with a driving desire to help others in the pursuit of becoming the best possible versions of themselves. With a background that includes coaching, mental health counseling, philosophy, English, and law, she strives to reach people by sharing her personal stories of struggles and successes. By always keeping it raw and genuine, she reaches her readers on a level that is real and comforting, always accepting and never judgmental.
You can read more of Michelle’s story and what she shares about her life on her blog Shelbee on the Edge.
