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The Ambiguity of Time: Life’s Great Paradox
by Michelle Montoro
Lately, I find myself pondering the anomaly of time.
At 45 years old, right in the middle of my life, I am often experiencing this strange sensation of inconsistency as I hear myself saying, “Life is short, live it well,” followed quickly by, “You have all the time in the world to get things done. Take your time and do it right.”
This disparity makes me question, which is it?
Do we have all the time in the world? I guess, sometimes we do. And then we see lives ended abruptly due to tragic events, illnesses, accidents, and it forces us to reevaluate this idea of having all the time we need.
At 45 years old, I feel younger, healthier, more energized than I have ever felt. But then there are those days when I feel every bit of my 45 years catching up with me. My greatest desire on those days is an uninterrupted nap.
At 45 years old, I have done a lot of things, had many experiences. Some great, some horrible, but all of them have paved the road to right here.
At 45 years old, I still have many goals and dreams yet unrealized and I tell myself often that there is time to get it done. Then I find myself panicking that there is no time left at all. What have I been waiting for? Have I wasted the past 45…
